will it be the same again?

im not happy. im not sad.
i dun even knw wad im feeling.
maybe its the pms.

saturday. (I DO NOT slang my 'saturday', aaron sim.)
parade. was quite alright. not as exciting as ndp.
but anyw, nthg can compare to ndp.
ndp makes all other parades look pathetic. LOL.
during parade some retard called.
it was during the silence while waiting for the guest-of-honour somemore la.
and i could HEAR the vibration la.
i was super scared tt a ma'am will come and ask wads tt noise.
whoever who was calling DIDNT have any brains to hang up la.
it rang for more than half a minute.
when it stopped i was sighing with relief,
AND whoever tt was called AGAIN. WTH IS HIS/HER PROBLEM LA.
tsk, and the people in front of me OBVIOUSLY cant hear the super loud drum lor.
LOUD BEAT ON LEFT CAN?
all the people at the edges cld march perfectly well except her and a few others in the middle.
tsk. FORGIVE AND FORGET. i dunwan to be in another contingent as tt again.
how anti-climax of the marchpast.

service was kinda fun.
31st was super quiet for the 1st time during service.
and we realised that 3/4 of our company was ASLEEP. NO WONDER. ahhaha.
they were announcing gold, and when they went "31st company, St. Margaret's Secondary School", all of us were UP and SCREAMING OUR HEADS OFF.
mrs koh was on the side of the stage and she looked up at us and gave us this look.
and we screamed until they announced st hildas and we kinda screamed for them cos when they announced st hilda's, mrs koh shook the person's hand and took the plaque.
then after that had the sustained award. (:
that one we screamed even more. we screamed like the whole time when mrs koh walked up the stage until she walked down. hahahaha.
in 7 years we got 5 golds, NOT BAD WAD!
and there are only 3 recipients. (:
there were some people behind saying we're crazy.
OF COS we're CRAZY, i mean if YOU can scream when you get your bronze and your silver, we're obviously allowed to be EVEN MORE CRAZY when we get a gold AND a sustained award!
hahahahahah. (:

at night i heard something really disturbing.
this was a statement made, by an adult who didnt have clothes suitable for church.
"thats a good reason not to go to church."
which i responded with a really sarcastic "NOT BAD WAD." followed by sticking my toothbrush into my mouth so that i wldnt hav to respond to any other remarks following my statement.
which was by someone else, "dont say tt in front of the children."
oh, yea yea, dun say it in front of the children and let them knw tt adults think like tt and teach them how to think tt way. its really not bad wad. wadever.
i was really hurt.
okay this is for lionel too.
if you dont wish to come to church, then i really dont see why you shld go to church then.
its like SINCE you're looking for reasons not to.
just like wad was said in mudaobao today, we cannot deceive God, He knows our hearts.
and by God's grace, we're alive.
or else u'll probably find lots of dead people in church.
and im thankful. (:
hm, or for lionel's case, i dun really see why im always trying to get you to come.
i suppose im doing this because i dont want you to see you fading away or anything of tt kind.
but okay, i AM kinda tired of doing that.
i dun see why i shld continue. its your life.
BUT u knw what i wld say if you dont come. (: ultimately, its your own choice.

well, TODAY.
waited for wq and xh super long. AS USUAL.
cell was abt the criteria for your bf/gf.
i think cell's rather awkward nowadays.
its like so quiet la. dun understand why but i seem to be keeping quiet too, not only other ppl.
mayb its just this... i dunno, weird atmosphere, like smthg's missing.
ohh well.

breakfast, service, mudaoban.
haii, words can really hurt people.
that is why we need to tame our tongue.
our tongue is hard to tame, yes.
but what i really dont understand is why you never seem to be able to realise WHEN you hav alr hurt someone, why you never seem to know that people have limits, and how you can call yourself a friend.
i think its not much on what your insult was.
its more of having being insulted by A FRIEND.
although i really really believe that everyone's body is made to perfection.
anyw, i hope that person who was insulted is reading this. (:

your beauty should come from your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worthin God's sight.
1 Peter 3:4

For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother's womb. Psalms 139:13

i hope it comforts you that your inner being is of much more importance than your outer being, and that your outer being is created in every detail by GOD. cheer up. (: love ya.

well, its back to monday.
this is a really really DEAD cycle of life.
which i wldnt want, if i had THE CHOICE.
bahh.

im sorry;

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