gone with the wind;

you know those days where everything goes wrong and you just want the day to have never happened?
today's one of those days.
im cranky.
i feel like yelling at something, i dont knw wads wrong w me.
i feel like ive been putting on a fake front the whole day.
when i smile or laugh, i know im not doing so from inside.
like something's jammed stuck inside of me.

i dont like runners.
neither does juer. yay.

just now kena by mr ng.
hey yeah, i was calculating on the calculator JUST before he called me.
but fine, aftr that i was half daydreaming alright.
and the second time he called me was bcos i was talking to myself.
well i wasnt completely talking to myself.
i was reasoning out to myself wad cheryl had just told me.
which INVOLVED physics. tsk.
and i didnt realise he was talking to me alright.
i thought he was just looking at me while telling his stories or wadeva.
grrr.
i was cranky and he had to pick on me. huh.

spent time at the library again.
i think i rather like the library actually.
mayb its cos i like going to the library tt i cldnt think of why people didnt like gg to the library.
tts why im gg to do so badly for orals.
oh man.

everything, good or bad, happens for a reason.
a good one in fact.
thats smthg i blieve in strongly.
thats smthg i live by and smthg that lets me carry on.
and also another thing i blieve in is shutting up.
shutting up and being seen as shy and quiet is much better than being noisy and talking on impulse.
you, talking on impulse will get u into trouble and ppl will shut their doors on you.
in other words, no one will listen to you.
i rather be listened to.

im in a dilemma.
to reveal my true feelings or to keep it to maintain peace?
gah sucks.
i really dont know what to do.
i think if i keep it inside too long i might blow up.
haiii.
what to do?

juer accused me of having an anti-class spirit.
cos i was too engrossed in my england book.
LOL.

i have one wish.
i doubt i will have it come true.
a few more hours and im sure it will never come true.

and i will surely miss you; (:

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