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Sunday, September 17, 2006
i'm fifteen, and i live in the past; i havnt been online for AGES! i didnt rly feel like coming on either. its a habit im glad to have broken. haha. my major papers are totally OVER! im left with geog paper one. gahh! (: happy! i've already completed 4 out of the 6 books of lurlene mcdaniel. im so totally moved by the 2 april lanchester books. she's practically me, minus real marriage. AND i hav not died yet. i might probably end up like her. i've learnt lots: 1. dont listen to anyone who tells you that you cant love two people at once, because YOU CAN. (: 2. life is just as terminal as cancer can get. (: 3. people who get sick need as much love as people who are well. today during that weird relaxation thing.. it was so weird. i was a liar. maybe cos i didnt want to get all emotional, or teary, and i didnt want to talk abt it. im coming clean now. to be truthful, at the start, when my cuz said to picture ourselves somewhere we want to be, somewhere that perhaps you've been before, i pictured that i was in that cinema at ps - watching herbie, more feeling than watching if you get what i mean. somehow it was so real - i started being so emo. all the way until she said that thing abt the birds flying - i almost laughed. in my mind the cinema disappeared. there was the beach to my left and a field to my right. there were children for awhile, they then disappeared. i turned to this path on my right and walked into a foresty area - what i drew just now. it was "somewhere ive been" bcos it was a place on a game on my ps (LOL) he was right there with me. - thats why i said i lied. there and then i realised i rly missed him, loads. and bcos i was thinking abt him, when i saw evynn walking to the bathroom in tears i totally knew wad he was going on abt even though i wasnt in his grp or anything. like - sixth sense. (: didnt have mu dao ban today. hung with the girls, went shopping for bags. realised that wq and i are people who head to straight what we want while xh glances ard all the time. hahaha. read the whole aftermoon away. wanted to study actually. tsk. im SO distracted. its freezing today, isnt it? i kinda like it. but im freezing. LOL. last calls for people who want to visit jasper! and hopefully u'd be nice and arrange your schedule so that your wednesday aftrnoon is free. im bad at this arranging of timings. steph had to rub it in. :P i'll live with it. i could sing of Your love, forever; |
